Him

It's been like what, about three weeks? I've been dreaming about him almost every day, if not, every other.

Sometimes I dream that I wake up from my sleep and I will think that I'm not dreaming and he is not in my dreams. It freaked me out for a while. Once, I dreamt of people I don't like and I was comforted to know that he was near. Another time, I saw him as an elephant, that was one of my favourite dreams of him from all that I can remember. Last night, as most nights, I saw him as himself, and he spoke to me about something important, but I only remember him saying, “This is awkward, ain't it...” It was so distinct that I woke up a little.

My dreams are probably a function of my imagination and desperation for something exciting and novel to happen. Dreaming of somebody for consecutive three weeks is quite novel to me. It is almost as if I can control, dictate what or whom I want to dream about. But the thing is, I didn't control or dictate dreaming of him. I didn't even want to dream of him. I don't know where he came from, seriously. I was quite troubled at first. Now I'm used to it. Somewhat.

Of course it had crossed my mind if it's a matter of the paranormal. It could be. He may be somebody who want me to do something for him, that's why he's come to my dreams.

Or it could simply be because he likes my company. You know, like how I like his company. I kinda like his company. Meeting him in my sleep... man of my dreams?

That is so corny.

I don't think I will meet his equivalent in real life. What are the chances of a man being an elephant? Or an elephant being a man? My hopes will be dashed.

I wonder how complicated would it be? If I were to like him? As in, in a romantic way. He is pretty likable. Not particularly dashing in looks, but there's something just clicks between us. If I were to love him? If there is the possibility that I will dream of him almost everyday, or every other, for the rest of my life, then I... you know. As awkward as it will be... of course, not that the relationship needs to last forever, but I suppose I require that possibility?

Of course, I'm just letting my imagination go crazy here. Anyway, it's not that I can really dictate what happens in my dreams, maybe he'll be scared off by what I'm thinking about here, and never appear in my dreams again. Maybe he's already engaged. I'd never know, really. Or that such things cannot ever happen. I should just concentrate my hopes on dreaming of him again tonight, if not tomorrow.

I need to change my life drastically. If this doesn't work out.